Disappointment ; Elation (?)

I could be disappointed lots of times, Yet be elated when its RARE,
I can be so damn down due to the let down ; & So damn happy,
Which is so damn rarely, & It just seems to surpass the sadness?
Tell me. Which should I feel? Yet both can be good & bad at the same time.

&. Something, I can't be able to reach within its range. Can't.
Something too superior, For me to be able to do it. Try?
When it just seems useless in any way. Its tiring, To reach for it,
When I know I can't. &.. It makes other things in my priority,
Distanced from each. Things, That I no longer understand anymore..

Next week, Is going to be Tiring & Busy.. Yup (: So, Byebye now..
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I'm Disappointed.
When it brought elation to its extent,
Yet at once, It can fall right down.
What I should do, To make myself face logic?
What should I do, To either convince myself ; To give in ,
Or to Convince you ; To really come back?

It no longer matters doens't it? Nevermind.
We'll be waiting, If that helps.
Till its disappointment ends ;
Till you did understand what elation stands.