One needs something to believe in, something for which one can have whole-hearted enthusiasm. One needs to feel that one's life has meaning, that one is needed in this world.

- Hannah Senesh.

Didn't realised, that I haven't update for 10 days already.
Lots of things happened maybe, But I keep forgetting.
Hahahaha. But somehow, mostly things that I won't want to know are remembered.

I decided somethings, But didn't do it.
It wasn't failing anyone, But myself.
It doesn't do bad to anyone, But myself.
Just that, I got so used to being that me with them,
I keep forgetting what is what when its fake..

Maybe I'm dumb, But I'm not dumb in someways.
I don't know what people are thinking,
But can people at least stop it from repeating?
Who would have know, that people whom you knew,
weren't like that at all.
Who would have know, that people who you thought were good people,
can change immediately when they win you.
So hows that examples to be...

Who would have knew,
That I thought at least we will aim it for a better one,
Turns out that people lied.. Faked..
& Why, must be that incident related again?
For whose advantage will it be then?

& Why, does things.. have to disappoint so much of?
I do know them right?
But it just seems, that the whole changed suddenly..
Simply hilarious..
A sudden change to devils...
Devils I never thought that were in them...

I thought, I can believe..
Simply, hilarious.

What can I say then.
Who should I say to then.
Why should I say then.
How many more.

Its enough uh people.
Why does it have to be should means to archieve things,
Why does it has to be such way to change..
& Simply, I'm not a complete fool to be blamed on ;
& If you don't know me,
I hated being blamed for something I didn't do,
Right from when I was young, Cursing those who do so.

I have my limits, I let it be.
I wanted you all to be happy, I thought you all were great.
But when things changed, I don't get it,
& You all make me feel inferior,
The neglence of something that I don't know whats what about,
Treat me as & when according to your ownself..

Since then, It broke.
Too bad if you all forgot the me,
Too bad if you all changed & thrown away the me,
Too bad if things will never be the same.

Cause when things goes away for me,
It will be never there.
Dumb ways to let go,
Dumb ways to end it & stop.

& Somehow I shall say the truth,
I hope everyone dies,
I hope the world dies,
I hope I die.


Way too many times.
Way too devious.
Way too over.