I don't like this ):

I'mmmmm.... SPEECHLESSSSSS! ): Ohmygod....
So many thingys.. Ohmygod la! ):

SIBF , i know. i know. but,
just that its something we'll be able to together & bond well..
i know. i know. that its necessary..
but it will not be the feeling of one together..
i know. i know. really , i know.
but, i had once experience it,
i don't want to again.. it somehow shoot me hard..

i know. i'm asking too much,
but, i want the band... just them.. ahh..

i know. they have their priorities in life,
important things, i know..
but i never it would be this soon..
but i never thought she did have to go first..
& now, i'm missing her & them like hell..

i know i know. maybe i'm selfish to be thinking this way,
but, i know.. i just, don't know how to say, hahaha...
it won't be there anymore! ): Ohmygod. hahaha..

sorry for being this way, i'm sorry..
pretend that all this didn't happened,
& give me one day to be me again (: really...
sorry. sorry.