didn't really intent to post, but suddenly lots of thinqs comes into my head..

Life, always full of terrors & fears? Is it so?
Thats why no mater what people do, terrors & fears are always one of the reasons?
Thats why so much unhappy & frighteninq thinqs just keep happeninq in the world?
But yet, people have to go on, on & on & on.
Some stupid, cruel people maybe thinkinq that they are happy,
of what they do that got them those useless money or thinqs.
Whats the point? Money? Properties? What the fuck are they good for?
For killinq? For makinq you go to hell when you die?!
Think about others. Some people maybe poor, but yet, they are happy..

Dont know why all this thinqs just come into my head.

Maybe the future is always a fear to everyone. Maybe so.
Some people may think that they are confident of it, bless them bahs :D
Future... So much thinqs that we would experience...
So much thinqs that we will suffer.. So much thinqs that we need to go through.
Most of the time, people would be left out. I can bet on that.
In time to come, most of the people would be left out.

Soon, i will be too. I know i will. Its coming soon. I know.
Lots of things are gonna happen soon too. soon.. but too soon...
Some things maybe a special case, which to most people,
they thought it is a good thing. But maybe to the special case's, it is not.
Like it is said, a 'special case'.
Special until it is gonna be in a different situation?
Special until its gonna experience a different things & people?
Special until it maybe alone at times & be left out at most of the times?
Yup. 'Special'. Too special to suck that much.
A good way to learn, it is. A good way to experience.
But a entirely different feelinq from the current & past ways,
To be able to experience, to workhard, to be happy for :D Great things to be in.

But are things gonna change soon? Are they?
So much things to be in? & in new thinqs too? New things..
To determine on, no matter how tirinq everythinq would be?
But just, it is already too tirinq now. It is. How will it be in time to come?
I dont know. But will try so. Time, will help me with my energy?
To make me less tired? Or, to make me fall? I dont know, nobody knows.
But soon, i will know.. I know i will.. Cause, its me. Everything happeninq in me.
Left out? Fine, let it be.. Must be used to beinq alone already.
To work hard bahs.. Been lazing recently..
Study? i tried so, i tried.. But just, i cant help, but to not understand it?
I really did tried... I really did..... I'm a failure.. I know so.

Lol.. too much nonsence? yup.. i dont really dare to say out of what i am saying.
But just, they are my thoughts, my feelinqs, my fears..?
Nevermind. Will get my positive thoughts back soon, i think?
& i dont care who is or are readinq all this, its just me. My thoughts. Me.
Readinq this, i dont know what you all will think bout, but just be quiet of it please.
Nothinq more to say, buh byes.. :)

I need myself back..