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DID ANYONE SEE ANY STUPID ENGLISH ON DERH TABLE,WHEN SECTIONALS TODAY??
PLS TELL ME IF YOU TOOK IT OR KNOW WHO TOOK IT!!
i lost my english worksheet, FUCK lah. mr said wan us pass it up tmr.
okay, i can confirm, he would be furious. can i jus pon skool tmr??
thinqs aren't going any better at all. jus WORSE.
how how how.....? why are thinqs jus beinq lyk dat..?
this month.. everythinq.. seems so different.. so damm down...
so damm suay.. everythinq.. everythinq.. i hate it.. i hate august..
why.. is my life jus crumplinq now just because of this month?? itsuck..
ihateit.. ihateeverythinq.. esp, you & you....

watever it is, i still have to face everythinq up on my own.
i cant rely on others, i know, i know.
facinq up to derh thinqs in life, havinq derh need to overcome pain ourselves.
not to rely, only to overcome it by ourselves.. hahs.
maybe, just some ppl cant do it. maybe, dats derh way they dont want life to be.

ytd, i thought i could overcome all of it, but suddenly today,
i cant aqain. jus so damm fuck. it just suck.
i know, hate me for all you all want. hate me, i know, you all will.
for derh way i treat her?? blame me, push all derh faults to me,
jus push everythinq to me, FINE.
i dont care, cause, i am always kanna blamed for everythinq.
no matter wat fact or fiction it is. JUS BLAME FOR NTH.

esp you.. i wanted to look you into your eyes, yet, i am afraid to do so.
cause, you told me to let go of you, & i will. since you wan to be dat way so.
but just, are you still holdinq on??
for me, its hard to let go, but thinqs dat are happeninq this few days,
maybe i would only strt to hate you, but hard to let go...

if i were to tell you, i need you now..
would you really be there?? i guess you wont..
but really, i need you now.. D; i really do...
everythinq is going so unhappy in my life.. i dont understand why..
i need you here with me now.. can you??
i know you wont.. but jus.. i need you lots... everythinq is jus so unhappy..
damm. i need you alot now.. pls..? i know, its impossible..

today skool~ go 1e2 classrm outside slack aqain~ go parade square line up,
go back class, EL -.- blah blah blah~ watever~ damm sian lahs.
den is HISTORY. lots of pages dat we nid to read and memorise..
den do a chart for derh Interaction?? blah blah~
aft dat is recess, go canteen eat eat. den go slackkkkk.
go hall line up.. go bac class, is science.
listen to teacher talk lorhs. aft dat is maths.
WOAHS!!!! I COMPLETE EVERY WORK DAT MR LAU GIVE!!!!! WOAHS!!! :D xD
aft dat is chinese, teacher show us derh dont know wat old video,
den i read derh 'Secret Heart' book for derh whole 2 periods.
i like dat book :D lol. quite nice lahs, i like dat kind derhs~ O.o.

aft dat dismiss, go put bag outside band rm, but b4 dat,
i thought derh band rm is open, so i jus go pull derh door, cannot open. LOL!!
den realised dat inside got ppl, so paiisehh xD
put bag liaos jiu go eat~ den aft dat sit outside band rm.
cos wan wait for kengiee they all take instru mahs.
slack outside there lorhs... lalalalalalas~

when you were there, i felt so uncomfortable.
i felt so down once aqain. you reminded me of how disappointment is.
how it is, to be so easily blamed when at derh same time you were hurt from it too.

den aft dat band rm open, den they all take their instru & we take stands also.
go swinq there pract. blah blah blah~ den aft dat sabrina teach me how breathe.
i cant sia.. i breathe in my stomach will be lyk flat flat derh..
lol xD den keep tryinq lahs, until really weird?? LOL. try bahs.
aft dat juniors' meetinq, for derh exchange derh thinqys derhs.
talk about smt also. omg.. arghs. guess it will be hard to forget bahs..

aft dat pract awhile more, jiu pack up liaos. go put stands bac at derh band rm.
den jiu go home liaos. lalalas~ postinq now lorhs.
haven eat yet~ waitinq for mama to come home!!
hahs, also nvm, dont feel lyk eatinq either -.- lol.

i tried, i tried thinkinq happily today.
BUT FUCKINGLY, it failed -.- wtf. it nvr failed before.. it nvr....
why did it failed... i tried to be happy.. i tried to..
but still, it ends up beinq even worse?? it just suck.
jus because of you & you. derh disappointment, derh blame-ness?
maybe i am always blamed for thinqs. since its, fine den..
i cant change you & you's thought also. but i could only forget you & you..
to stop derh unhappiness when i saw you & you.. i hope, i could.

but when at the day i die, i would only wish,
if only i didn't know you & you,
maybe my disappointments wont be dat much..

tmr need stay bac -.- stupid chinese remedial. 1.30pm to 2.30pm. wtf.
so late den strt. but letitia got stay bac with me :D
so tmr going point bahs~~ & BTW!! BASH LETITIA 78 TIMES TODAY!!!
i help hui yu and jia jia bash her mahs xD LOL!! lalalas~ xD

& finally!!!!!!!!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LETITIA!!!
OLD LIAO HORH!!! xD

:D nth more to post.. buaix :)
i will forget, I WILL.