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someday, i will totally let go :D
i know i will. i know.
sooner or ltr, i will :D
so now, it will be derh progressinq period~
LOL xD i will..

hahs, lots of thinqs happen today~ lots lots lots.
watever.. today skool. 1st period chinese~ cant concentrate -.- dont know why.
was talkinq to letitia bahs xD LOL.
den aft dat is maths, listen to mr lau.
mr lau leavinq lerhs T.T walao.. den derh FUCKING cheryl pang go say 'YES!'
WTF!! I DONT WANT MR LAU LEAVE LAHS... i wan mr lau to stay to teach us..
i prefer his teachinq lorhs, & his ADORABLE. LOL! xD
i will miss hym :D T.T alot. as derh most nice and adorable teacher in HS! :)

hais.. den becos of cheryl derh 'YES!' jus now, we were qurrallinq.
alot of ppl sayinq her. HAHS!! _|_ lah she.. mr lau damm gd lorhs.. D;
aft dat is PE. i brinq my PE shirt for nth -.- LOL.
cos we doinq prensentation for derh Weight all dat thinqy mahs.
heng we do finish liaos. was damm fuck up dat time -.-
den use derh powerpoint slide, i click de, so squad at de side there.
they read~ aft dat end liaos, derh strinq got caught in my hair xD
den i say chee bye dam loud in front of derh teacher. LOL!!
cos so damm paiisehh mahs xD LOL! aft dat is recess~
me & letitia go canteen eat eat liaos, jiu go library.
those fruits basket derh books there i read guo de.
i am still WAITING!! arghs -.- watever.. letitia borrowed her books,
jiu go purposely walk around derh skool.
den aft dat line up, under derh sun quite lonq -.- will be chao da lerh lahs.
den aft go bac class, science period~ listen listen~ bout cells derh.
aft dat is DRAMA AND PC all dat, & MR SAID NVR COME!!! PLAY!!!!!!!
LOL!! pull letitia tie, den she pull mine, tug-o-war?? xD LOL.
play until damm fun lahs. muahahas!! aft dat got relief teacher come,
she dont care derh lahs. so derh few of us take pass, den go walk around derh skool?
LOL. lalalalas~ watever -.- den assembly, watever show -.-
but thoughout derh show, i keep thinkinq bout thinqs. lots of thinqs.... lots.

aft dat go bac class. talked with letitia. told her everythinq dat i think bout.
cos i trust her :D aft dat go canteen, talk even more.
& she told me smt, about HER, which is damm FUCK.
den i was lyk, havinq emotional probs liaos.. i was endurinq endurinq & endurinq..
no mood to listen to derh enrichment teacher, so jus fa dai?? lol.
watever fuck. aft enrichment, shouted damm loudly at derh corridor.
shouted 'CHEE BYE KIA'. -.- den aft dat go slack with letitia,
at derh block there. talk talk.. bout her and bout hym. jiu go home liaos.

& today, 2 of derh thinqs in my life, are gonna end. they are.

i am stupid, to regard you as a friend. YOU BLOODY BITCH.
you make used of us in derh past. you tried make letitia hate me.
BUT TOO BAD, YOU FAILED. you BITCH. & to tell you, i dont want a friend lyk YOU.
sorry or watever. friends arent lyk dat, FRIENDS ARE NOT DERH WAY LYK HOW YOU DO.
DAMM SERIOUSLY, BLOODYLY JUS FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE... IHY..
say i am bad bahs.. but you wont understand wat we knew.
from derh past until now, den we realised how BITCH you are.
you used us damm lots, & JUS FUCK OUT LAHS. WE DONT WANT TO SEE YOU.
esp me. i hate you more den letitia hate you. seriously.
i always thought you were a great and true friend & NOT a bitch.
i endure, to let you change bac but yet, you TURN WORSE.

& fuckingly, i learn more truth about you. what you did, ARE WORST DEN DAT BITCH.
YOU BLOODY FUCKER PU BOR. I SWEAR, YOU ARE NOT MY FRIEND ANYMORE. BITCH.
wat you did to us from derh past until now, WE HAD ENOUGH.
you are smart, to hide it, but we know it now. BITCH.

STAY OUT OF OUR LIFES. FUCKER CHEE BYE. WE HAD ENOUGH. TOO ENOUGH.

sometinq else liaos...

i know sooner or ltr, it will be. i know it.
i always know. cause i believe, nth would last in this world. nth :D
hahs, i will let go. I WILL :D
yi dao liang duan?? O.o? watever -.-
but i will, but derh way to do it, is to forget..
but i will do it. & aft dat, i will be jus lyk letitia. HAHS!!
i will try to be :D to stay out of it.

hahs, as you can see, lots of thinqs are endinq in my life.
dats means my mind will be sot sot lyk dat for a few days hurhs?? yup.
or for maybe longer?? hmm.. i dont know?? xD watever -.-
but if tis few days i showed temper, sorry. sorry in advanced. :)
thinqs gone even more suddenly now. even more. so my mind,
is lyk blurred? or stopped?? yarhs, maybe.
thx for your endurinqs if derh nxt few days i am in a bad mood. thx :D

btw, lots of thinqs is endinq soon. dat means my life will be endinq soon??
MUAHAHAHAS!! kinda related xD lol!! :DD
but a good thinq anyway, derh earlier derh thinqs end, derh earlier my life end.
derh earlier derh peace arrive fo me, derh earlier i let go of everythinq.
derh earlier i would really be happy :DD lol.

i wonder where derh family i hope for had gone.
where parents which i could confide in,
where i could get happiness from,
where i could me comforted, to keep me away from pain.
but seems lyk, tis family, is not there.
it seems lyk dat family i hoped for, are nowhere around.
only family, which i hated. a father which vent his stress on us.
a mother who dont care, dont understand & dont bother.
a sister, who jus wanna win me on everything out.
i hate my family. they suck lots.
if only.. i was born at other families.. where i could confide in.
where i could really be comforted, & to be away from miserys...
but jus, it cant be true for me. my family, they jus suck..

& i wonder, if true friends have been flown away too?
where all derh friends dat are left, are no where true.
just lies, lies & lies. for their own sake, with blinded eyes to others tears.
to make used of them, to protect themselves, while their friends, are helping.
true friends, are not to used your friends, but to help them.
true friends, do not make friends hate each other, they help them to bond.
but yet, i treated one of them as real friend, yet,
it turn out dat i am wrong. i am stupid. i am.
it is not her fault, it is mine.
for being stupid to regard her as a good friend.
now dat i have learned, i would not anyhow take anyone as a friend.
cause the pain, of derh wrong choice of good friend, are far too much..

it seems lyk, i dont wanna talk. i realised, i haven been really talkinq,
for quite lonq. jus doinq my thinqs, with no sounds.
jus my thoughts, wonderinq around.
thoughts filled my head,
sadness & depair bloated my head. someday, it may explode.
into zillions of tears & blood. someday, it might jus break into halfs.
i dont have derh strength to talk anymore,
as there maybe disappointment, despair & pain reachinq within me.
i will jus sit there in silence, until derh day when i would quietly leave..

i would shut up tis few days, deep in my thoughts. wonderinq elsewhere~
where thinqs are to happen, where thinqs are to be gone.
so i would jus shut up, and let derh thinqs goes on. lyk i was nvr there.
until i would slowly be gone & gone. till i was no longer there.

tmr band :D CENTURIA & THE LIGHT ETERNAL!!!!!!!!!!! MUAHAHAHAS!! xD
but i will try to let go of smt, which is there. :) i will.

& btw, i want to create a private bloq. BUT NO ONE WOULD BE INVITED.
unless you are a super special case. pls dont ask me to invite any of you.
cos dat bloq, is only deep of my thoughts.
derh deepest of my thoughts, dat no one knows..
gonna stop here. BUAIX!! :D
i am disappointed with you, i always thought you were a friend..
but you arent a friend, you ARENT. & IHY. so its a goodbye from us.

& you, i will let go, lettinq go, step by step. until derh way,
when i will toally let go :D but i know, i will.
you will too. hahs. den freedom will be there? i think so? LOL.