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today's post, will jus be bout thoughts.. to much thinqs D;

thousand of thinqs & thoughts floatinq around in my mind,
but i cant describe it out.. i want to say it all out, but it couldn't be..
tis kind of feelinq, suck.. is thinqs just going better? or lousier?
am i escapinq or am i beinq a positive while thinqs r just going bad for me?
i dont know how it will be. maybe it will end bad. maybe it wont.
nobody knows..

just because of one person who change, it ruins everythinq between derh few of us..
we used our courage to wrote for dat person, yet its still derh same.
not derh same, but worsen. & fuckingly its not anyone's fault,
but we know, you REFUSES to stop dat fuck attitude.
it sounds harsh.. i know.. i know. but damm seriously, we are gettinq fucked up.
we told you, yet you fake fake say you dont know.
we know, its not your fault dat you change, but PLS, jus stop..
we have been endurinq endurinq, to prevent it from seperatinq us.
but now, YOU ARE FUCKINGLY DAMM WORSEN. not dat fucking bitch fault, but YOURS.
you know dat you have changed, yet you continue.
its like you purposely wan it dat way? pls, JUS STOP.
we cant endure anymore, JUS STOP.

& fuckinq bitch, thx to you, most of our class ppl who is with you,
they changed. lots. jus because of you, influencinq ppl.
causinq them to be lyk dat. YOU SUCK YOU DAMM CB BITCH.
you make them lyk derh way you are, causinq chaos to us.
but dont worry, YOU WONT BE ABLE TO CHANGE ME. NOT EVEN A SINGLE PART OF ME.
i know, you are already dat bitchy, you cant change.
so jus leave them out cant you? WHAT IS THE PROBLEM WITH YOU?
ARE YOU PURPOSELY MAKING THEM TO BE LYK YOU?? TO MAKE PPL HATE THEM LYK DERH WAY THEY HATE YOU? ARE YOU? you damm bloody bitch. i wan my friends to be who they r,
NOT TO BE LIKE YOU.
now i know, why you dont have any true friends,
cause you are not one in the 1st place, & you are only makinq them worse..

really dont know wat to say.. DD; it sucks you noe?
when it just strted to get worsen.. jus becos of a fuckinq damm bloody bitch..
which changes ppl, & ruins friendships.

& to dat friend ; you know who you are..
i am sorry if it does sounds really harsh to you.. but pls,
JUS STOP DAT FUCKING ATTITUDE!!!!!!!!
at 1st, i nvr thought we would be in tis way, i nvr thought so..
but derh change you have made are far too much. we told you, yet you become worse.
wtf.. we cant give in to you anymore. cos we hated it, much..
sorry. for watever fuck.

anyone who saw tis post, scold me bahs.
say me selfish or watever fuck bahs.. but, you all wont understand,
derh pain of losinq a friend.. plus derh few of us have been tgt everytime..
when sec skool.. tis feelinq sucks..

i wonder how.. how i have been laughinq & smilinq for derh past few days..
when a few damm days ago, i already got tis feelinq. yet,
i could still play, laugh & be happy.. i dont know how..
when from thursday, i already know, derh 3 of us, its gonna be ruined.
but yet, i could be smilinq.. maybe i am mad. or maybe,
i am just escapinq from the fact dat she really has thoroughly changed..

but it seems lyk, for watever bad thinqs dat could be happeninq,
it seems lyk i am always derh baddie. WHY MUST IT BE ME HURHS?
FUCK HELL. EVERYTHING JUS PUSH TO ME TO STOP? EVERYTHING?
EVERYTHING DAT IS BAD WILL BE PUSHED TO ME? YET DERH GOOD THINGS WILL JUS DONT KNOW.
OKAY. watever hell fuck. stop pushinq derh baddie charact to me.
STOP. it pains more to be baddie den jus saynq you hate some1 and doinq nth.
jus pushinq derh hate you have to some1 & make her a baddie.. wtf..

fine.. say me as a baddie aft readinq tis post bahs.. fine.
watever FUCK you all wan say bout me bahs. jus SCRAM.
i guess, you are happy dat i am always derh one beinq a baddie bahs?
hurhs? thx, thx lots hurhs? for blaminq me for everythinq?
& its everytime. I HATE IT.

i dont wanna be one, STOP PUSHING IT TO ME!
you hate her more den i do, why mus you sayinq me dat i am more gd in it?
WHY SIA? I DONT WAN TO BE DERH BADDIE. I DONT WAN TO.
your hate is more den me. yet you are pushinq it to me. fuck hell.
it suck. lots.

damm in pain now. so just, LEAVE ME ALONE. i dont wanna talk to anyone now.
cos everythinq, jus fuckingly suck.. i hate it.. FUCK HELL SCARM OUT.
cb.. so FUCK OUT OKAY? AND DAMM, I HATE YOU, YOU & YOU!

theres so much thinqs i wished to post, but it jus doesn't seems to come out.
it is just.. isn't nice.. my mind, is just bloated. with unhappy stuffs.
i wanna say it out, but cant.. i dont know why, but it jus suck...

dont know wat else to say.. maybe wont be postinq a few days.. buaix..
it may seems to be a gd day, but not for us...
we know, our friendship are worsen.. breakinq..
from derh few of us, suddenly it become only 2 of us. it pains us.
but to prevent our hate into qettinq deeper..

sorry, but really, you have changed far too much.