lots of thinqs happen tis few days..
lots..
dats why...
my life...
it simply sucks..
and for wat happen today,
ie cant control it..
ie simply cant..
it was jus..
too much to handle..
too much to face..

will keep derh post short if ie could..
anyway,
today skool,
1st period is history..
den is science..
flamingo is really...
unreasonable lahs..
but ie dont understand why..
suddenly,
ie jus find myself c__inq?
ie cant take it..
ie thought ie was qoinq to burst..
everythinq is jus too much..
too much...
ie c___d lots..
den janice help me tell flamingo ie stomache mus go toilet..
thx janice :)
den run to derh toilet,
keep myself iin there..
c__inq -.-
lol..
lots -.-
den aft dat went bac class...
tryinq to endure..
but ie cant..
it was jus too much..

so c__d aqain...
arghs..
den faster chionq to eat..
cos ie wan counsellinq..
ie nid it..
den go counsellinq rm,
but derh teacher on leave..
wtf..
CANT TAKE IT LAHS...
den went bac class slack..

slash twice aqain..
everythinq was jus too much..
when art lesson,
art teacher gort smt to attend,
so nvr come.
den was playinq wib letitia xD
dat was derh only time of today,
ie felt happy.
thx letitia xD

lol.
play until veri funny xD
den go toilet wib yingchui and letitia.
play water aqain xD
even more wet..
lol.
aft dat,
CME.
mr azizi derh story is really damm true to hear about :)

now,
ie could really say.
nobody could be trusted..
nobodyy..
everyone cheat on ppl..
ie dont understand y..
y mus they..??

aft dat,
go canteen.
meet jia jia, kengiee, domonic, guo wei and gloria..
eat finish lerhs jiu go derh parade square dat side.
but teacher say cannot,
so go derh swinq there aqain lorhs..
pract pract pract..
den told ruby my new clarinet lyk weird weird lyk dat.
derh clarinet haben repair derhs.
so ie chanqe bac to my old one,
but nort derh old mouth piece..
den go bac pract aqain..
den jenson they all come..
den pract awhile..
domonic, guo wei, kengiee they all jiu go liaos..
left me and ying chui..
den alot of seniors jiu come liaos..
den me and ying chui jiu shift to derh other table..
strted emo-inq -.-
lol..
really really nid counsellinq now lahs!!!!!!!!!!
fuck..
aft dat we move to derh other place pract,
den jiu pack up.
slack slack.
den go swing there sit,
see seniors fall iin..
den saw guzheng ppl..
saw zhao qing xD
den we go derh other side sit to listen to derh guzheng ppl play lorhs.
nice seh xD
lol..
jiu go home liaos..

ie dont noe y..
it seems lyk ie have lost control of my emotions tis past few days..
ie cant control..
ie keep c__inq in skool -.-
derh stress is jus too much?

seriously..
ie really cant cant cant take it..
derh pain, misery,
jus too much..
secondary skool lyfe,
is really totally different from primary skool lyfe..
totally..

tis few days,
ie keep stayinq bac at skool..
ie dont wan to go home..
ie dont wan to..
but stayinq at skool is tired too..
and ie feel lyk qoinq home,
but ie dont wan to too..
ie dont noe how..
ie dont wanna be iin any place of tis world..
so damm tirinq..
so damm miserable..

when ie really needed counsellinq,
it cannot..
cos derh teacher is on leave..
2dae,
it was derh worst emotions of my lyfe..
ie really really totally lost control of it..
dat sudden stress,
anger,
sadness,
misery,
pain,
piss,
and cant be explained emotions,
r jus too much..
too much for me to handle..

ie hope..
tmr ie would get a hold of myself..
ie hope ie wun lost control aqain..
if ie really did..
it will be worse..
worser den today..
everythinq dat happen,
is simply too much..

seniors,
once aqain..
thx..
sorry..
for ur disappointment towards us..
theres no hope for us..
no more..
no ever more..
lyfe has to go on no matter wat..
we are tryinq to..
but really..
ie am losinq control of myself..
totally..
and soon,
ie guess ie would reali be out of controlled...

previous post :
nobody knows,
nobody understand,
nobody felt..

everyone's lyfe is different..
but some of their lyfe,
r jus too much..
ie noe,
ie can count myself as lucky..
ie noe..
but..
derh stress..
are drivinq me nuts..
ie nid counsellinq now..
cos ie noe,
eventually,
my emotions,
would be gone...

nobody could ever help..
if there is,
ie hope it would..

realised smt..
from derh past few days of my post..
its all bout emotions..
sadness..
tiredness..
and miserys..

lyfe jus simply sucks for me..
ie would be out of control by den...