postinq now~

dat thinq still super bright red seh..
a bloody, red, lonq one (;
nvr thought can be dat bloody xD

anyway,
2dae went ferr band.
jia jia,
hui yu,
ying chui and miie wan meet at skool at 7am.
we wan do smt..
but end up nvr -.-
cos no one gort tissue,den derh place we sittinq nort gd place lai derhs.
so we nvr...

but jus dunchh understand y ie feel dat way..
becos of ytd?
jus suddenly,
ie have nvr been so quiet when iin band..
ie have nvr been..
and nort so emo too -.-
seems lyk ppl ishh lyinq aqain??
ie dunchh noe..
ie jus dunchh wanna trust anymore lerh lahs..
and ie wun care lerhs...
since ie cant chanqe,
means ie cant chanqe ue too...

aft dat fall iin..
blah blah blah~
go guzheng rm,
ms jama nvr come,
so do thinqys lorhs..
den bout 9.40am lyk dat,
gort break.
den miie, jia jia, hui yu and ying chui go toilet do smt...
:)

slashed twice...
long,
bloody ones...
lots of blood too :)
muahahahahas.
onli pain alittle..
now it ishh still iin bright red color,
guess it ishh qoinq tuhh bleed aqain soon?
lyk how it ishh jus now..
suddenly jus strt tuhh bleed aqain..

but it makes miie feel,
do lyfe reali nid tuhh be dat cruel??
cant they dunchh be??
cant they?

pls dunchh blame...
cos ie reali dunchh noe wat tuhh do dat time..
ie wanted tuhh slash rite from derh strt..
but now,
derh urge ishh even more..
overwat ytd had happen...
ppl ishh reali hard tuhh chanqe lorhs.
includinq miie..

ie let ue all chose arhs,
ue all would chose ue slash den beinq selfish,
or beinq selfish den slash??
WHEN ue hate ur lyfe loads.
of cos ishh slash lahs.
at least ue can make other ppl happy while ue make dehr pain gone..

dats derh opinion ferr miie...
....

aft derh break,
and doinq all those thinqs..
went bac tuhh guzheng rm..
den derh clarinet's tutor come liaos,
so those clarinets derh go band rm lorhs,
joinq derh clarinet's seniors :)
learn quite alot~
:)
but derh band rm ishh super duper cold lahs.
freezinq seh.
anyway,
until bout 12pm++ lyk dat,
go bac guzheng rm.
dehr rest of them pack liaos,
den they all playinq.
lol.
den we pack liaos jiu plae plae awhile lorhs..
aft dat we all go band rm,
den we all chsoe tuhh sit on derh floor den chairs xD
so ps sia..
den wheb seniors plaeinq,
it was lyk freezinq hell......
reali freezinq..
keep tremblinq -.-
zzzz.
aft awhile,
saw maii wrist,
it was lyk fuckinq bleedinq AGAIN?
ie dunchh noe y.
quite alot of blood also lehs..
dunchh get it..
mayb ie cut until too deep lerh bahs...
dats y ie call it bloody~
faster get tissue from letitia,
and get out of derh band rm..
den went downstairs,
heng lyk stop stop liaos..
den fall iin..
did 60 pumpinqs utnil lyk mad..
ie think ie skipped bout 8 pumpinqs?
cos dat time stomach pain -.-
cos of last time dehr NAPFA..
tired sia...
den done liaos,
fall iin bac aqain...
blah blah~
dismiss..
jiu go home lerh lorhs...

sorry ishh all ie could sae..
cos ie noe,
ie am hopeless.
maii opinios bout lyfe,
it jus wun chanqe,
ie tried..
but it jus doesn't work...
guess wat ie could do now,
ishh jus continue..
and go on~
if nort,
ie will go mad someday...

stop here lerh bahs..
bb..
bloody...