lalalalas...
postinq...
hais...

seems lyk lyfe has tuhh jus go on no matter wat...
so damm depressinq lurhs....

fine...
ie said ie would TRY thinkinq positively -.- ....
its hard lurhs....
when everythinq ishh negative,
but ue nid tuhh think positive...
superb hard,
when ue hate ur lyfe dat damm much...
when ue dunchh wanna be born iin derh 1st place...

anyway,
2dae went ferr band...
do all those normal thinqys~
blah blah blah~
den pract instruments~
-.-
den blah blah~
ms jama checked our hands aqain.....
added 20 pumpinq -.-
lol...
dat means 180...
den pract pract pract aqain...
derh concert thinqy derh sonqs,
added Hawaii- dunchh noe wat -.-
lol...
and Spirited away :)
will work hard ferr dat sonq derhs....
:)
den aft dat,
blah blah~
pack up,
den go der atrium there...
seniors haben come down,
so slack slack awhile...
den go under derh rain there sit...
emo aqain.....
lyfe reali jus damm suck lurhs..
derh rain gort biqqer...
derh better...
but kanna pulled inside...
LOL...
den sit at a corner...
nvr said anythinq -.-
...
den fall iin..
did 50 pumpinqs...
until lyk siao...
still gort 130 more...
hais....

nxt tuesdae gort NAPFA...
wth...
dunchh even feel lyk qoinq larhs...
ie wan go band....
:(
arghs...

ie habb been thinkinq alot ytd...
ie noe smt,
ie habb changed alot..
ie am no longer derh happy self ie am?
derh kee siao one ie am?
ie dunchh noe y...
such sudden chanqe...
lyk ie am no longer happi...
last time,
everytime ie post,
there arent dat much dots..
but now,
there seems tuhh be alot...
and derh amount of happiness has decreased totally...
180 degree change of miie...
ie dunchh understand y...
wat has make miie lyk dat?
ie guess ie dunchh even noe maiiself...
when others dunchh and wun also...
ie guess...
theres no cure ferr miie,
tuhh be who ie am derh last time..
derh happi self...
mayb,
ie would be lyk tis forever lerh bahs...
ie dunchh wan tuhh,
but who or wat could help?
if could,
ie wish it would...
ie dunchh wanna be lyk tis neither...

suddenly thinkinq tis chim thinqs...
jus askinq tis arhs...
ue can answer iin maii taqboard if ue wan..
if dunchh wan den nvm...

habb ie reali reali reali reali changed??
iin derh past,
ie was there plaeinq and jokinq around wibb ue all,
but now,
it seems lyk ie always wanted tuhh be alone..
seems lyk ie am nort dat enthu anymore...
ie dunchh wanna be lyk tis...
PLS CHANGE MIIE FROM BEING LYK TIS..
IE WAN BE HAPPY...
IE DUNCHH WANNA BY LYK TIS...

ie guess nth would help...
ie guess so...
bad thinqs jus wun stop happenninq...

even if ue assured dat bad thinqs wun happen aqain,
but ue cant noe derh future...
ue cant..
but if ue can,
dat would be great?
lol xD
-.-

mayb wat ie am gona write will make derh seniors pissed or annoyed also bahs..
but reali seriously,
ie reali wished larhs,
dat ie could slashed until ie die...
until ie died...
until maii heart stop...
until ie could leave tis hated world...
sry if derh seniors gort angry if ie wrote tis..
but tis ishh maii thoughts,
reali..

nvm..
stop lerhs...
bb..
ie dunchh wan be lyk tis..
ie dunchh wan...

ue wun noe wat will happen iin derh future...
even if ue said dat,
ie still noe bad thinqs would still happen..